I am a food addict

Hi, my name is Anna, and apparently I am a food addict.

I think I need food to make me happy. Lately, I am barely holding on emotionally. My husband decided almost a year ago to pursue going back into the Air Force, and I am okay with that. What I am not okay with, is him having to leave me and our 5 kids alone while he goes to training for several months. I don’t really have a choice, unless I want to tell him he can’t pursue his “dream”. Then he would resent me for the rest of his life for stopping him from his dream. So, instead I am stuffing my emotions down with food. It isn’t the worst I have ever been, but I did break down and get a cappuccino yesterday, and we had bought the kids chocolates for Valentine’s day and I find myself grazing on them all day long. šŸ˜¦ Not good.

I feel powerless against the power of food. I wish I wasn’t so alone. That’s how I feel alone and abandoned. My Dh isn’t gone yet, and we have 10 weeks until he leaves. I hope I can get a handle on this before then. šŸ˜¦

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One thought on “I am a food addict

  1. Hi, I’m Amy, and I’m a food addict in recovery šŸ™‚ You aren’t alone in your journey!

    One of the things God has been impressing on my heart during my own journey to break addiction and lose some weight- is that the issue behind a food addiction is one of refuge… using food as my refuge and comforter rather than God. Personally, I had to recognize that food was an idol in my life and I had to repent. The journey is a daily one, sometimes an hourly one, sometimes it’s minute by minute… but giving this most vulnerable part of myself to God is showing me that He’s trustworthy… even in this.

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