Can I press pause please?

Life… it keeps on ticking on… the world keeps spinning and sometimes I don’t take the time I need to pause and reflect.

Look around you, what do you see?

Me? I see my world upside down still from a move from Michigan to Ohio. LOL. I see kids running to and fro, and months that have went on that I have little left to show from it. My poor kids haven’t enjoyed summer at all and neither have I.

I grew up in a small town in northern Michigan. (not the upper peninsula) We lived in a city right on Lake Charlevoix. It was incredibly beautiful and we were at the beach at least a couple times a week. I can count on one hand how many times my kids have been to the beach. We have never lived anywhere in their lives that has had a beach. *Sigh* Regrets.

Regrets get us no where. I live in perpetual regrets. I know that is not how Jesus wants me to live. Yet, I keep doing the same thing over and over again. It’s frustrating. I definitely know what Paul means when he said that what he wants to do he does not do, and what he doesn’t want to do, these are the things he does. I struggle with this reality daily. I look in the mirror and I do not know me anymore. I do not know my own heart anymore.

I want to want to go to church. I want to want to pray. I want to want to read my bible. I want to want to do so many things. *sigh* *sigh* *SIGH*

Lord, HELP my “want to”!


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