Oh, I am pretty sure a book has been written about this….. but alas, I ask the question to myself and to God anyway,
How do I capture their hearts in this homeschooling adventure?
My heart is captured by homeschooling. I read about a curriculum and books, and I buy them. Yes, I have spent a boat load of money. I love the idea of spending countless hours learning with my kids and seeing them grow and develop at their own rate. I made a huge mistake years ago, and now it is my own undoing as far as their hearts are concerned. I sent them to public school. Ok, I am not totally against public school, but for me and my house, it just wasn’t the right thing. I thought it was at the time. I have since learned that just wasn’t what I should of done, and trying to RE-capture their hearts is a daily struggle. They miss “having friends”, to me this is laughable because they had no more friends when they were going to public school then they do now. Yes, they spent more time socializing and being hurt by that socialization then they do now, and I guess they miss that. I don’t know. I know one thing, I am tired of hearing about it. It actually kind of hurts my feelings, and I don’t generally get hurt by the things my kids say. I think the reason it hurts my feelings is because I am pouring my entire being into school for them. I am working hard, I am planning, and I am sacrificing “ME” time because of my great love for them and my passion for them to learn and be successful. Don’t they know how great that love is? I know they are children and children say and do hurtful things, so because of that I forgive their words. I can’t promise though that my eyes won’t sting a little bit with tears each time they complain.
On a good note, I am working on mapping out their curriculum. I can see into January now, at least for math and language arts. I am feeling more content and more at peace. My days this fall are going to be full, but a good kind of full. 🙂
Do you struggle with the words your children say about homeschooling?